When I spiral down onto the floor to do my 20 minute moving meditation practice there are times I think of it as diving into a pool crowded with chronic pain. And other times I find a way to balance struggling, wading, swimming, and floating in that same pool.
This morning was different, instead of feeling the fleeting sensation of dread I performed a perfect flip-turn after listening to Sharon Salzberg speak about the difference between openness and constriction. Today I could see an opportunity to use my accumulated somatic knowledge as a “poetic experience of reality”. It’s a health opportunity.
The author, Dr. James Taylor, explains “poetic experience indicates an encounter with reality that is nonanalytical, something that is perceived as beautiful, spontaneous, mysterious… Poetic knowledge is a spontaneous act of the external and internal senses with the intellect, integrated and whole, rather than an act associated with the powers of analytic reasoning… It is, we might say, knowledge from the inside out, radically different from a knowledge about things. In other words, it is the opposite of scientific knowledge.”
I’m very excited to continue to explore new horizons from the inside out keeping with a perspective of liquid flow, so that I may truly embody the knowledge that cells are constantly destroyed and regenerated. As my experience and information collide I suspect this fusion will not only deepen my understanding of the phenomenon of fascia but will more importantly soften my “felt sense” of chronic pain.
I’m getting more intimate everyday with the spontaneity of this ubiquitous liquid crystal fascia that pulses through through my body with its continuous exchange of matter and energy and its ability to respond to external stimuli.
I see and feel a brighter me. As much as I wished for a quick fix, I knew they don't typically exist. Healing is a journey and as Sharon Salzberg said, “No journey is exclusively linear”. In every journey there is a starting point, with rest stops and course changes along the way.